I wish I were more outgoing
I wish I had more friends
I wish I had more confidence
I wish I had more self-esteem
I wish I were skinny
I wish I wasn't so ugly
I wish I wasn't such a loser
I wish I was smarter
I wish I had more wit
I wish I was more creative
I wish I didn't want the things that I want
I wish I had a voice
I wish I felt more relevant
I wish I wasn't so lonely
I wish my bed would stop spinning
And my mind would stop thinking
So that I won't feel so bad
About getting up today
Knowing I'm me
I wish.
2 comments:
ok, did you write this? because, i love you. and your writing skills. and basically all of you.
i saw that you put you wish you werent skinny. bullshit. you are gorgeous. and i am not just saying that. i've been reading this book about obesity and stuff, and at one point, it mentioned this set point theory. where people are just kinda stuck in this little area of weight. they can be super healthy, but cant lose weight. and it reminded me of myself, and of you. because we both i think wish looked better, idk. but its kinda like thinking, look, this is kinda what happens to us. we had that luck. i think you are beautiful, and yeah, its taken us longer than usual to find someone perfect, but that doesnt mean he's not out there. guys are dicks around our age, and i think that we will find perfect people for us. really. its like, i dont know, we have standards, you know? we're not going with the first guy that looked our way. and thats good. because if we didnt have standards, well, one of us would be married or pregnant or some other random shit.
i love you. KNOW THAT.
and if this was just some sweet lyrics, um, AWKWARD. but nothing changes. =]
bardeou - a new way to spell bardot, but more phonectically.
Ellen! You are an awesome person just the way you are, I wouldn't want you to change one bit. If you ever want to talk, call me, I'm here to listen.
And I saw how you said you wish you were skinny? Think of it this way, if there's ever a food shortage, or a the end of the world, guess who're gonna be the first people to die? All those skinny bitches. Which is kind of a morbid way to think about it.. but it's totally true!
also, life is short, and we only get the first bit of it to be young, so you should stop stressing and just enjoy! because it's so beautiful to be here and alive now. and yeah, sorry if that sounds weird, but I've been having some realizations of my own.
just-you're great Ellen, and you're unique, and you should never regret that, because a lot of people don't get to be unique.
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